Having a First Baby, but then...

Ventricular Septal Defect, or VSD is the medical term for a hole in the heart. Our baby was born with one of these. The main problem with something thats wrong internally is that there is nothing to show anyone, or tell them why you keep having to go to the specialist and why you need to keep having ultra sounds on your new baby.

There is nothing visual, so while all other new Moms and Dads are enjoyng their babies and telling you what is the latest they have experience, (a smile, a giggle, some recognition), you know in yourself that you have a huge problem to overcome first before you can really enjoy any of these.

I wrote about our experiences with this in my book 'My First Year as a Dad'. Standing outside the Operating Theatre with my Baby in my arms, waiting to hand her over to the Surgeon, was probably the toughest thing I have ever had to do. Anyways its all at : http://www.1stbaby.info